Those that will take the time to read it and think there's a chance it might actually be serious.. please help if you can... I don't know if it is serious or not.. I'm really hoping its not, but there might be a chance... In the 'Ghosts...' thread (link >Here<) I mentioned something I dubbed as 'Night Tremors'. Now this problem isn't connected with ghosts (or maybe it could be?) but I'll explain exactly what they are here.
I'm not sure if this thread should go here by the way >_> Maybe we need a personal issues forum..?
Everything I know about my 'Night Tremors':
My Night Tremors only occur when I am trying to get to sleep and whilst I am lying on my back. In all of my experinces, these are always two things are always consistant.
The very first time I experienced it I was six and was sleeping in my mother's bed beside her.
Symptoms Include - The ones that occur everytime and which I define the tremors by:
- body becomes immobile. I am not able to move any part of my body besides my eyes.
- Senses don't work as they should. I am unable to hear clearly, the sound I hear is very similar to when driving fast in a car and you open
the window slightly, also vision becomes blurred and body becomes slightly numb and speech impossible.
- Skin becomes very warm.
- Incapable of breathing properly.
and usually:-
- lasts between 30 seconds to up to a minute each time.
- happens every other week, though can happen more than once a night. (record was 9 times in one night- when it happens more then twice, you instictively keep count)
Now, Ive been suffering from these since I was 6, that's 15 years and I'm not dead yet (I hope) so I do have about Three conflicting theories about what it could be... The reason I am making this thread, however, Is because of the Night Tremor I had last night (well, this morning at 7am; I checked my phone right after it) which was completely different (and more vicious) that any Tremor Ive experienced in the past. It really worried me as it was the first time I've panicked during one of the Tremors in years.
When I was alot younger, I used to believe that it was ghosts grabing hold of me. when I was younger, I thought I saw ghosts very often, though since I have denied myself that I had actually seen any, puting it down to being scared of the dark, and have remained skeptical even after the incedent last month (which I explained in the 'Ghosts...' thread) I've always had more faith in my other theories, but after last night, it's back in the running.
For a while now Ive been able to feel them coming on, as they usually follow these short dizzying spells where if feels as though my vision/head is moving forward and back rapidly though I'm not moving-- This, ive been led to believe, is quite common and I actually find it somewhat enjoyable xD - when ever it it happens, I get an image condured up of a dirty white window frame that looked into the kitchen of a childhood friends house.. no idea why.. When I feel the tremor coming on, I remain still till it hits and put all my effort and focus into moving my fingers, and then my feet whilst staying as calm as I can until the Tremor ends. Last nights one was completely different however and is the reason Im writing this, I'll explain it in the Ghost Theory.
Those that are still reading this, thank you. I'm asking for help... the type of help I need is if there is anything you have heard or read that sounds even remotely similar to what I have described. If you could ask people you know if they have heard/read anything like this that might help also! I will not go to the doctors with this as last time I needed them they failed me at every stage and I could have died if i tried to trust them further. I also refuse to take medication, which Im sure that is all they will try to give me. This may be nothing if my favourite theory is correct... But if it's something else it could be fatal...
My first theory was - Ghosts
As I said, when I was younger I used to believe in ghosts and aliens... my 'sightings' ranged from my nan to some of the friends I had lost when I was younger.. aswell as this red eyed thing (in year 3 of primary school) that tapped me on the shoulder as I was facing the wall and then hid under my bed as I turned over.. but I now believe it was my brother and my imagination had painted the red eyes on to him.
Now, when my Tremors started and the heat/burning sensation (usually on my face and shoulders) kicks in.. I used to think it was somethings breath or presence and also -through my blurred vision- thought that I had someone stood over me and the fact I couldn't move made me believe that i was being held... After I thought about it rationally (and after years of it happening) I thought it was something other than ghosts, so I started being able to remain calm during the episodes.
Last month I stayed at my friend's (Laura) house and we shared the bed and I saw (what I believe to have been) a ghost at my feet, sat there looking at me with his arm outstretched- placing it on my leg. the reason I stayed there was because we had a meeting in the morning and she lives a two minute walk away. I have since spoken to her mother who said "I'm glad somebody else has seen it" she claims to have seen it a few times and has namd it albert, she even claimed it to have thrown her boyfriend down the stairs twice, though he hasn't seen it.
Last night my tremor was different in that my vision and hearing remained perfect. I stayed at her house again last night, but wasn't with her as her boyfriend lives there now (it's not as complicated or scandalous as it may sound xD) So I was on the couch downstairs with the light on. I stayed because - again- we had a meeting this morning. All was well, I finally got to sleep on the couch that only lets you roll one way. I woke quite early and was so uncomfortable.. I was able to get on my back and regain a little comfort and then suddenly, without warning, the Tremor hit. This was different as I could see and hear, but still couldn't speak. usually my body freezes up and I cant move my fingers or feet (so i use them to consentrate on) but I could move them fine, It was my head and my torso + legs I couldn't move. I felt no weight upon me, but I could on my neck as though I was being strangled and my arms couldn't move from my chest, though I tried.
It lasted about 3 minutes before I was able to move again and the first thing i did was check my clock on my phone.. Now whether this was a Tremor or some sort of ghost attack, im not sure.. in a way i hope it was a ghost attack as I don't want my tremors to turn in that direction....
with that happening, it makes me have less faith in my favourite Theory: Dreams
Ive always questioned whether or not the Tremors are real or not. As I said, they only happen when Im on my back trying to get to sleep. Maybe the Night Tremors are just very brief vivid nightmares... this is what I really hope for... I used to believe there was something standing over me... could have just dreamed the whole thing? every single time--- things that makes me fear this isn't the case is.. Im awake before and after it happens, in the same position as I am when the Tremor takes place, and during -from what I can see- Im still in the room I was in when it started. Like last night I was in laura's living room, I could see a painting hanging above me and when It happened. When I had a night Tremor whilst staying at my friend Brendon's house, I could move my eyes enough to see him sleeping in his bed. Things that make me believe it is a dream is the sound, Its like a stock recording from my memories of being in a car - when we used to drive 200+ miles every other week to see my nan in London. also it feels, sometimes, as though I can move my arms slightly more than I can physically see them moving (like last night for example... I felt as though I could push them upwards but couldn't see them lifting from my chest..) I don't want to lose my faith in that they are just really dream but... I don't believe in ghosts enouth to believe the first theory... so I'm worried it might be the last...
The only other thing I can think of causing these Night Tremors is: A Brain Tumour
Or some other problem with my brain or body...like a form of epilepsy?
I don't have much else to say on this matter, but... It feels real... I'm sure there is definately a problem.. and Im worried.....
I'm the unflinching emotionless boy that is quiet and possibly Autistic and Diabetic... I keep to myself and rarely let anyone [in the real world] see me lose my calm composure. I keep my anger and happiness out of veiw and only seek minimal pleasure for myself. My family have scattered and there isn't anyone i trust any more, I've lost faith in the health services. I'm alone and I think I might be in trouble.. help?
Edit: Lol.. I actually cried a little whilst typing this... I don't think I even know myself any more xD
This post has been edited by Val: Mar 10, 2010 - 6:00 PM
























